Feminine Embodiment
Hello there beautiful beings,
As always, I hope the unfolding of your being is coming with open arms. I wish you grace in your journey of becoming. We are and will always be evolving, the best we can do is to be compassionate with ourselves through it all. Below is a few words on my upcoming Feminine Embodiment program.
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I came through my current understanding of what it means to be a "woman" as I've come through my understanding of most things in this lifetime - the breaking down of the false, the shedding of conditioning, and the awareness that what I was living, for years, by a definition of "woman" that wasn't of my own making. I spent a good portion of my life playing different roles - "the good girl", the "quiet and polite", the "people pleaser", and the "overnurturer" - in hopes that it would appease others. There were years of abusing my body to fit a mold, there were years of dimming the siren & the wild woman in me out of fear of being over sexualized or being turned into a woman one who's value is based solely on image. I used to mold my Self into a version of woman that was easily digestible for everyone around me so as to not upset anyone, even if meant betraying my Self in the process. I used to deny the parts of me that felt like "too much", "too emotional", or "too wild" for anyone around me to handle. When I started my journey of reclaiming aspects of my spirit/soul, I realized that I also needed to reclaim "woman" as it moves in and through me uniquely. The true feminine force, undeniably undervalued and shoved down by society/collective consciousness, is actually the energy most needed in the evolutionary trajectory of this all moving forward (in my opinion).
A woman in her full power is a rarity. I've seen many models of submissiveness and also its' polarity, an over developed masculine energy. I took this on for awhile, an overused dominant energy I thought I needed to get somewhere in this patriarchal society...I thought to my Self, "I will become very strong and always action oriented in order to compete with a force that is far beyond me." I associated "power" with being a man or playing out only the more masculine qualities of my being. I deprived my self of qualities that were actually intrinsic and instinctive parts of being in a female body. What my soul was truly longing for was power, in the embodied sense, and I realized I didn't have a model for this. Where was the wild soft empowered woman who also managed to create a "successful" intuitively led business? I knew she was already within me, but how did I go about accessing her? There's not a road map for this kind of thing, so I had to walk the path & create my own - which seems to be the running theme of this lifetime.
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Our system wasn't developed to embrace softness, vulnerability, intuitive sensibility, collaboration, compassion, deep listening, and fluidity. Unfortunately, the journey often starts by reclaiming the value of these qualities for ones Self. So it is my belief, that to change the whole of it all - we can start remembering and honoring the parts of us individually that were often denied/neglected by the whole. If I understand the value of allowing, softness, and sensitivity - my embodiment might actually start to model that another way is indeed possible. And maybe, just maybe, I can state this just by becoming it - or by simply remembering the truth of what I already am. Maybe our own embodiment of truth is the statement, the collective shift.
I know the "healed" feminine and masculine in me are both essential. I can receive an intuitive download and then process it through me and put it into action. I can wear floral skirts/glitter clips in my hair but also be extremely pragmatic, assertive, and make decisions. My version of woman is accepting multi-dimensionality and polarity. I am able to access and play the different parts of my being - not just the patterned ways that were most accepted or that I witnessed from people, places, systems, and things I don't resonate way.
I felt severed from my femininity in the truest sense.
So I began the retrieval journey...
I began clearing the imprints of generations of constraint and false molds from my system. I spoke to my womb space and realigned with the cycles of the moon. I danced and howled under the stars and moonlight every night, remembering the wild woman in me. I softened and cried years of tears and held my Self lovingly in my sadness. I spent hours on end dancing in the studio to connect to my emotions, creativity, and sensuality once again. The wise woman and sage in me came out in me demanding the reverence and respect she deserved. At the same time, my inner maiden wanted play so I started getting messy again, skipping down the street, wearing glitter, and painting with my hands. The lover in me started to express herself more openly and I began seeking the intimacy/depth of connection in all my relationships that my spirit longed for. My inner priestess came through to show me the sacredness in the mundane, the spirit in everything, and that part, so instinctual to my soul, that has always trusted the divine and truth above all else.
My spirit is repelled by anyone or anything tell me how I get to be or how I get to show up. I've never done well with systems of authority as I see my Self as the authority on my life. Freedom is the most important thing to me so making up my own definition of how I show up as a woman needed to also be my decision. I hadn't realized how much of me had been denied or pushed aside, I hadn't realized how my connection to my womb space had been entirely shut down. I hadn't realized how much my previous relationships were in response to the "wounded" feminine within me. By reclaiming these parts of me, I was actually reclaiming so much of my life. I was more lived in as a woman, through my own understanding and embodiment - I felt the divine feminine in me come alive.
What I realized is that all aspects of "woman" were available to me, as they are for all women. There is no box, there is nothing to be contained, no one way of "divine feminine". There are just qualities to reclaim, spaces to embody, and parts of us that want to be acknowledged and lived in. My power has grown in correlation to being witness to the awakening of the divine feminine, as defined by and through me me. I truly do feel sovereign in my being after the shed, the remembering, and the embodying. I see it as a radical act to be fierce and soft at the same time. I see it as a radical act to be fully who you are.
All of my programs have come through my own journey of reclaiming the parts of me that somehow got forgotten in this thing we call life. I used to make my Self really small and felt I had to hide the qualities that were actually so essential to me as a soul and as a woman. I created my Feminine Embodiment program to speak to the journey above - to offer a container for the tools that help one remember and to create the sense of connection that being in a room with other like-hearted women doing the work brings. If we could normalize that we all have picked up many things that have made us dim out light or deny certain parts of ourselves in order to feel safe at some point this could be the start.
There is another way and we do have a say in how this whole thing goes down. This program will be a shedding, a remembering, and a reclaiming.This will be a powerful group of amazing woman, and I'm so excited by the group that's forming.
More details in the video below. I would love to have you if it feels in alignment with your now. Only 10 spots available. Intentionally intimate so we can go deep. Email me if you're interested in joining us.
Thank you for reading & here's to living into all of us,
Bree
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Journal
Below are a few prompts from the workbook for my Upcoming Feminine Embodiment program. During the program, we will journal for individual understanding but also discuss this as a group to learn through shared experiences.
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1. What associations (“positive” or “negative”) do I have or have I had in the past with being a woman?
2. What did I see modeled for me around what it means to be a woman from my upbringing/family of origin?
3. What did I pick up from my childhood to early adulthood from friends,, society, and the collective consciousness about womanhood?