Life & Soul- It's a happening thing
Hello beautiful soul in human form,
I hope this email finds you traveling with ease through the complexities of this life journey. I hope this email finds you soft in heart and ignited in spirit. So grateful as always to be in community with you all.
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My heart longs for the iteration of Bree who's yet to become. I am attempting to reprogram my Self to enjoy the journey. The process of becoming is a whole lifetime thing as we are always in a state of becoming. If I'm awake and alive, there will always be a next iteration, cycle, and stage of my humanness that I'm living into..
There's still a swelling in my soul that is persistent and determined, a force propelling me forward that I can't quite put words to. How do I honor the momentum while enjoying all that is - which is just now and now and now. The shifting nature of the moment makes my mind want to grasp hold, but my Spirit's desire is to just flow freely. The nature of being in human form - there's no direction manual to this thing - can be scary or exciting depending on how we look at it. I'm excited today but ask me again where I'm at tomorrow. It's all changing and reorganizing in real time - how life is shifting in relationship to us is entirely dependent on how we're showing up to meet it. It's different now. And now. And now. Perception and understanding of the Self is the thing - not trying to predict or control something that will always and has always been beyond our grasp.
What does one do with the longing and yearning for what's to become? I've come to the conclusion that that longing is actually the nourishment of hope my soul needs to keep going. The soul, as my friend Kathleen says, is light years ahead of the body. So if my soul knows the trajectory and what it wants to experience, the best I can do is to trust that and just completely embody my now. By fully being where I am, I am present and in right relationship to the information that is available to me in the moment, and my response will come then from presence to life and my Self as it actually is now. I'm different then when I began writing this and that's actually the closest thing to truth. It's all transitory and so fleeting - I want to be fully here for this happening life process.
In the purest sense, in the awake sense, this journey is a sacred one. Every day, every breath an opportunity to evolve consciousness, to understand depth, and to connect to it all a bit more deeply. Honor the journey. Honor the journey. I want to honor how I care so so deeply about it all but also be able to laugh my way through. I want to be able to know that I played freely and was present to the small moments of sweetness that reignite the heart and are a reminder that truth can be found in any moment, in every moment. This journey can be a contribution to elevation and evolution of it all by how I show up (how we all show up) to the moment - I know it can. I want to be a part of the life party. I want to be a part of the evolution, even if it's in the smallest of ways.
I'm learning. I'm learning. I shed distortion like old skin and am rebirthed over and over again into more fullness of Spirit. I am becoming more sensitive. Presence and awareness sensitizes me to to the moment in a way that I can't not be affected by it. And I want to be affected by it all, then I can actually respond/meet life from truth of Spirit not confusion, the numb, or the more contribution to distortion. I'm more here than I've ever been which means I'm also experiencing the multi-dimensionality of reality more deeply. The contraction, the expansion, the calling forth, the shed, and every space in between. Can I normalize the cycle of becoming through me? Even if I witness that everything around me has forgotten the sacred process, can I still honor the sacredness of the cycle as it moves through me? I will honor it again. I will honor it again.
My yearning is just a wish to belong to the moment itself. A direct tether unperturbed by the chaos of confusion - which distracts from essence of it all. How could I say that my deepest longing more than anything was and is always just to be fully here and alive in the truest sense? That was and is the meaning. Can I be here for the unfolding? Because I so love the unfolding. The journey is and will always be ours for honoring. There is so much that has shaped, contributed, and formed the iteration of me that I am now that I could never have predicted or planned. The truth is it's all unknown and always has been. The truth is that life is happening in real time, right now. Let's try to be here for it. The life party process can be such a beautiful and rewarding one if we're here for it. (:
Thank you for reading,
Love you all,
Bree
RECOMMENDATIONS
Read
“My formula for success was very simple: Do whatever is put in front of you with all your heart and soul without regard for personal results. Do the work as though it were given to you by the universe itself - because it was.”
The Surrender Experiment by Michael Singer
Listen
To whatever music moves your soul and reminds you that you are alive, so so very alive. Or the music that gives permission to the feeling and connects you back to your Self and all that wants to move through you. Or listen to the voice of someone filled with joy and let it be a reminder of goodness everywhere. Or the echo of a full exhale that speaks directly to surrender. Or the sound and texture of words that you know are spoken directly from the heart.
Watch
The play of life in front of you. A sunset. A child laughing. The subtle ways someone you loves wears a smile. Leaves rippling in the wind. Your hand painting drawings in the sky. The moon and its' unique way of speaking to you. The way life changes and changes again. The grand show of it all.
Write
What's something I saw this week that moved my spirit?
What did I learn this week that's useful on this life journey?
What reminded me that I'm awake and alive today?
What was something I noticed about how I can show up in presence more fully?